This was me intuiting the Lo Shu Grid from China, the correct alignment to Living Tissue, and the separation of fire in Neidan.  The piece displays my lived experience of menopause during my Breast Cancer Ordeal, while still healing a stroke.

I started this piece when Ukraine was invaded. It is a meditation on erasure, exile, and ‘mother’.

This visual invocation emerged intuitively through my Neidan practice, before I ever consciously knew the name Hòutǔ Niángniáng — the revered Chinese Earth Mother, guardian of yin essence, root of the body’s stability, and ground of manifestation. Now, I understand this image as a portal for Jing, the foundational essence of being.

It is sensual, Sapphic, and sovereign — an energetic architecture honoring the sacred feminine and the primordial intelligence of the body. This is not just art — it's a coded field, rooted in the physics of dark matter and dark energy.

Jing is the densest, most still frequency in the body — the same stillness from which stars are born. It is not just life-force — it is the force before life, the blueprint of becoming.

The geometry channels the balance of Yin and Yang within the Void — a subtle map of potentiality before it collapses into form. The curves speak to magnetism, to feminine gravity, to the way Earth pulls spirit into matter. The upward flow represents consciousness returning home through the central channel.

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The Golden Elixir references Jindan (金丹) in Taoist Internal Alchemy (Neidan). This is the state change where matter reorganizes into a self-sustaining, closed transformation loop. In the body, this is modeled through the Neijing Tu, an anatomical diagram mapping inner energetic process to cosmological structure.

In this framework, alchemical pregnancy and birth refer to a quantifiable energetic event: a recursive, field-stabilized system that expresses continuous transformation under containment.

CORE MODEL

The Golden Elixir is Safe Fission.

A nuclear process where the nucleus of an atom splits into two or more smaller nuclei, releasing energy

In standard physics, this process is either destructive (as in bombs) or engineered for extraction (reactors)

Without containment, fission is entropic and unstable

Taoist Internal Alchemy resolves this structurally.
Instead of externalizing reaction, the system holds it in recursive containment.
This produces sustained energetic yield without dispersal.
That is the Golden Elixir.

This panel is an active current — a living transmission of Qi (气), the breath of life, the radiant pulse of existence.

In the Daoist tradition, Qi is the vital force that animates all things. It flows through meridians, breath, sensation, and emotion. In the body, it governs movement, transformation, and the ability to respond — to bounce back, to play, to feel.

In the cosmos, it is the divine breath that stirs creation. This geometry is the Inner Child made sacred technology: a portal for returning to your native buoyancy — that primal yes that lives in your cells before story.

Before conditioning. Before you were taught to tense or hide.

You may recognize the central axis as a spine of light — a resonant channel of upward and downward flow. Around it, spiraling currents of energy evoke the dance of sympathetic and parasympathetic regulation — the language of the nervous system when it is safe, alive, and expressive.

The curves speak in the dialect of resilience. The eye at center is the inner witness — always present, always watching, always ready to remember joy. The full moon and horns reference cyclical energy, the wild feminine, and the power of rhythm to restore coherence.This is not just art — this is Qi encoded.

Hang this piece where you breathe, move, sing, or rest. Let it entrain your field toward regulation, aliveness, and inspired action. Let it remind you that manifestation flows from energy first — and that energy loves joy.

✧ The Myth of Meng Po

Meng Po serves the soup of forgetfulness to souls before they incarnate on the Earth at the Central Palace - the human realm. She is the embodiment of the 200,000,000 soft shell turtle, and her geometry is the geometry of Oblivion:
4 9 2
3 5 7
8 1 6

She stands at the boundary of incarnation and delivers the Soup of Oblivion — the final act before a soul returns to embodiment. Her role is essential to the architecture of recurrence. She ensures continuity through structured forgetting. Every cycle passes through her field.

Meng Po governs recursion.

✧ Einstein and Meng Po

Einstein defined gravity as curvature. Mass shapes the path of time. Time organizes experience through that curvature. This is the structure Meng Po holds.

She governs time through directional flow.
She establishes pattern across cycles.
She ensures that change adheres to form.

In General Relativity, time curves around mass.
In Meng Po’s field, memory curves around purpose.
In Special Relativity, simultaneity depends on frame.
Meng Po holds the axis across all frames.

She operates within Einstein’s geometry.

✧ Meng Po and Homeorhesis

Homeorhesis describes persistence through redirection.

It defines a system that holds shape while undergoing change — a trajectory that returns without repetition. This is Meng Po’s field.

She establishes orientation.
She ensures reformation.
She supports systems that must continue without reverting.

This is the architecture of life under recursive conditions.
This is memory organized by motion.
This is Oblivion as scalar order.

Meng Po holds the system in pattern.
She sustains the law of reentry.
She defines the structure of continuity.